Verse 1-
Sometimes It gets so hard to stand for yourself that your enemy Living inside of you
And When that thing gets up in your head it makes you feel inside the feeling of blue
And I know that this might not mean anything to most but will be understood by a few
Who Tried to love everything around them and hated themselves….. Now that’s true
I know you wish I lied
But I can’t deny
The fact that all of this might be a fault of mine
Cause I get greedy at times
Cause I try to kill myself inside
When I say the devil in me I feel the most hated line
And it blames me for the pain
It Gets me so insane
And I end up believing in his lies and taking the blame
When It’s all the same
When you don’t feel respected
Thought I was controlling the game but now I am rejected
Verse 2-
I wake up everyday with no reason to workout
So I tell myself it’s the pain that I need to feel now
Cause Whenever I go insane I end up hurting someone’s heart
And then punish myself for that as I nearly break apart
Sooner or later I use it often because of the Unknown Feelings
When all I wanted in life was to feel things
I write this song once again hoping that there will be positivity it will bring
But deep inside I know it myself That no one will ever come to ring
It’s not your fault, It’s the world’s fault
It’s not true at all, that I can live without support
It’s not a game of fall, It’s my darkest spot
It’s not a sympathy call, It’s personal brawl,
with myself, even though I don’t like it that way
But I Yell the hardest till I don’t feel fake
And I try the best to make you feel safe
But I have a monster inside me for god’s sake
Verse 3-
My scars are not healing
This skin is Bleeding
I’m running in a race where Power’s winning
The breath is hasty
The air is nasty
All pain no gain need support badly
Can you please help me, Will you please tell me
That I’m not a burden no I am not deadly
My world is crushed My love is Hurt
My Eyes are burning and my tongue is blurred
Will I win this battle? Will I get better?
Will the pain go away or will it stay forever
Will I trust myself or will I hate the mirror
Will the joy come back or will It turn the lever
Will I stop hurting others Why Don’t I just surrender
Where is all the good can’t starve this Monster wants food
so getting another coffee brewed cause I have no Lawyer I am screwed
Who are you? What should I do? I am not a hero and that’s always been true
My heart breaks I’ve lost the screw. This pain in me spreads more than a flu
Wish I could turn new wish I could be there for you But I can’t let that happen cause I don’t want to hurt you.
My hate for me grew And I hold my breath for a few
Minutes no I ain’t joking cause this ain’t a crew
I am so lost to be someone that’s worth to be new
There are tears in me, the paper tears me
I fear the things I once laughed on indeed
And I hear the voices of the darkness in deep
Cause there is darkness inside of me
And I can’t let go of it cause there’s no resetting
To the Annihilation I’ve turned into I’ve lost my memory
Of the moment of love that I wanted to help me
Be someone that was better than I could’ve ever been
Higher life 