So once again I have to go down this road!
Hoping that it might just end up leading me to top
But is the top really such a valuable prize fighting for
And nearly ending up depressed just makes me sore
Never thought that this would be so hard but I’ve reached so far from the start
So I guess at this point giving up is not worth cause I am stuck in this world
There nothing that can conceal my feeling right now
Cause Pain might be worth deserving now
I don’t know why but my heart feels hurt
And I don’t wanna answer it cause I have stain on my shirt
That no one knows and I can’t ignore, it’s got me going so back and forth
wanted to be the topmost but didn’t reach top 4 so maybe intentions weren’t good at all
But it isn’t the time For me to say goodbye
Cause My feelings are not yet burned alive
I can feel them trying to crawl out alive
But I can’t let the out cause they would never survive
In this world, yes I have accepted my condition
Going from a man who was filled with ambition
To a tired little boy who just wants some time to rest
But whenever he kicks back it results to something bad
And I can’t let them happen so I have to stay ahead
Of all the people in my life and that makes me feel depressed
So I try again, cause I can’t handle the blame for all the wrong that happens
I don’t enjoy the way people get hurt and then bent their knees before depression
What is my life
Is it how I die
Just give me a sign
give me my mind
What is my life
Will I ever be bright
Will I ever win the fight
Just free my mind
Fast Part –
Just free my mind… Cause I am afraid to die
Lonely in this life with no having no one support my side
But I am not alive I am dead Inside
because I my heart was broken when I tried to make me a life
Why! I just try to make the worst into something worth to survive
I hide all the pain I have and have to face it alone cause No ones by my side
And it pains me to feel this way that I am not worth even a bit of pride
I get that I can’t become the one I want to be
And that I would never be able to get to the dreams I see
Cause The biggest dream I’ve ever seen is me living my life free
But I can’t ever have that freedom cause The only way is for me to quit
And I can’t quit this life because If I do then That would never be me
So I guess I’ll never be free and I’ll never get to be something
Or someone who is worth my self-worth and please
Why! Trust me, I am having fun living this life
And The more I get to live it the more I feel alive
If that’s what you want to hear then do something to hear it from my mind
And I cannot identify of who evern Am I
han? Am I really just a bit of malfunction in your system of perfectionate crime
Was I actually supposed to be deleted and don’t tell me it wasn’t worth the grind?
I am still inside My own self and I can’t ever seem to get over that align so Tell ME!
Just Tell Me………
Higher life 