Verse –
Yo, My favourite Rapper Hopsin Wrote this song, 6 years ago
And I listened to it since then but never felt it more than a song
I was wrong, Cause this ain’t just a hit, it’s a place where I belong
I never knew that it would make me feel so exposed
But now I don’t fear to question you, cause my respects all gone
And with nothing to lose I can let my anger out with no fear of loss
And Now that no one’s here to break me cause I’m strong
Let’s start this conversation by asking,” What are you even hiding on?”
Well here I am, Didn’t expect me!
Why, just cause you messed up my life doesn’t mean I am no healthy
I am in pain, and I am trying to be fine
But this is the fastest I can go when You can’t be mine
I never realized it would be like this, me being the one to left out
Cause at first I was filled with pain and now it’s turned to self doubt
Even though you all turned on me I blame myself as I scream aloud
And I can’t take it off my head cause it’s been beating me in all these rounds
Heartless, tried to give myself a heart
But whenever I got close to it I feel apart
Darkness, I am filled with dark
maybe that”s the reason I have been fighting alone from the start
But now I can’t, handle it all alone
Don’t tell me it’s worth it cause cause I ain’t worth it anymore
I am trying to fight alone, but I can’t fight with a heart sore
And why would you even try to betray me knowing my heart was half torn
I am done with your lies, you say that I don’t care
But I was the one from the start with you when no one was there
Guess I left something out that was important to be fulfilled
And now Karma is making me pay with all the pain I have filled
I am hurting myself, And I can’t help it, you though I was good at mapping
My own head, But I ain’t at it, My mind is already enough of a wreckage
No tears in my eyes because I they are hid inside of me
Only smile of my face but you don’t see what I see
So, I am reaching to you, can you hear me cry
I am tired out of fuel and I can’t understand why
I am ununderstood and that’s because I did an undone crime
Of caring for people when I can’t face what I hide
It’s taking over me and I need you to see it
I have so many scars and now they all are bleeding
I have so many questions to ask and there’s so air to breath in
So I’ll be quick as much as I could be without leaving
Tell me why is there pain and suffering when you don’t need it
Tell me why the good always get hurt and the bad keep winning
Is this the same world you wanted to built now that you have seen it
Why are the broken ones always ending up convicted
I am done with this game, why do you even want to break me?
Is it because I denied you and I started following my on lane in
A world where greed and money was worth far more than reality
And you choose to break me, I am the one who had no option but to start faking my personality
This is what you give me in return?
More complications in my life while others just watch and have fun
I ain’t moving up or down I am just stuck as the disordered one
Cause I lost my directions and by my side, I see no one
You Just call me crazy and leave me like I have sinned
Man You are the ones who did this to me, with no air to breathe, These scars don’t cut that deep and nowhere to be, Where even are my Kin?
I am tired of these games that people are playing
They just imagine that the truth is this but never even try saying
And when we can’t understand them, they just end up blaming ,I am tired of this maze you’ve been laying.
I had no choice But to choose my life full of pain!
I wanted to see myself gain victory over this world of blame
I wanted to be in the hall of fame
And Now with the weight on my shoulders I can’t expect my life to stay the same
The people I love are messing me up, Everyone has an ego
I’m the only on in this world who is putting it aside and trying to be a hero
But no one is helping me to reach that height
So I have to make my alter ego to stand by My side
ave learned so much in the past years for so long and now I am just a normal person who just wanders and roam
Forget Vengeance man, the man is dead forever just because he received orders instead of love letters
Maybe one day I will be able to repent myself in front of you and get myself to a place that is somewhat better!
No I don’t want to say anything else now
Because I am filled with loneliness inside man, even though I have a crowd
I might just end up crying if I say more anyway
So I have to end it now without knowing a new way
So I guess I can’t be happy in my life ever again
So do it your way
and I’ll stay away
I am a human I’ll stay in my lane.
Ill mind.
Higher life 