Verse 1(0:27)-
Hey guys! Long time no see
It’s been a while, I guess I’ve been busy
It’s alright! I am back this time!
with a new feeling, and a monster sign!
Take with me, It’s all fine to see,
Cause I see in me what I feel indeed
Keep breathing, that’s not my type,
can get dark as hell when I talk about what is in my mind
Doing songs and it feels like I am going to do it forever
But sometimes it makes me feel like it would never happen
And all of the emotions that it takes make me feel so fed up
That when I try to erase the bad it just gets darker and sadder
trying to get hold of the things cause I know they are mine
But they slip out of control as it goes with time
Can’t lie but I keep telling myself that one day It’ll be fine
but it won’t be, and I know but still, I wanna keep on trying
Here I go again, with the feelings I’ve been holding,
Had some friends before but now act like they won’t be
So When I sit at this table I know that I’ll be lonely
It’s the only thing that haunts me or is it just my fear talking
Told Me to go and rest, but the truth is you wanted me away
Wished me all the best, but Still, you wanted me to feel the pain
felt like I was a mess like I was an outcast without a lane
But I came back to my sense, trying to get me to go insane
Hook(1:10)-
have been trying to feel complete but it never has an end
Cause I am never satisfied with what I become or who I am
Keeping steps on and on and living in my own clouds of condemn
One hit and I will fall and still, I don’t want any help to be sent
Cause All I know is
Life is hard!
Fall apart!
No new start!
No regard!
broken shard
From the start!
Life is hard!
I am scared!
on my heart!
On the guard!
Avant-grande!
Gone too far!
Verse 2(1:38)-
It was 17 March, halftime through the day
Felt so happy like I got to a point where I felt I found a way
But it ended up being a memory that left me all so damn insane
got me broken, I am hopeless and yet I am trying to make my lane
Could Have gone to pills but I am not that kind
Could’ve aimed and killed but that is not my type
Trying to sharpen my skill I am getting to high
It’s all down I feel, And going, I am going lower with life
it goes on like a ringtone that keeps playing in my head
Playing a Song goes in long and still makes me feel felt
There are many songs to be written and many things to be said
Working on, feeling wrong, cause It’s just not enough in the end
I don’t understand why I have been holding on to this,
I can go all insane and feel Like I don’t fit in
Or I can stop being the blame and go away from things
The pain never goes away And I can’t cope with it
Taking names in my mind,
I can’t play with these rhymes,
god will you please give me a sign
that I’ll be fine and my life will be mine
It’s like I’ve been hurt but I am fine
I am not done but I keep trying
Over with a bottle of whiskey and a glass of wine
Talking to my own demons passing through the night
Feeling all the things I want to
I am feeling like a small youth
Cause the more I try to fix things, the more they end up half-truths
And I am on my way too far too
Believing lies over some dark truth
take me away, I feel insane and break me open so I can blame you!
Pre-hook
Cause I have been blaming myself for a long time now
And hearing you blame me for the bad is just a miserable doubt
When All is lost, it’s not over, There are things to be found
But I don’t wanna be found when I slip off or I fall down
Cause All I know is
Life is hard!
Fall apart!
No new start!
No regard!
broken shard
From the start!
Life is hard!
I am scared!
on my heart!
On the guard!
Avant-grande!
Gone too far!
Verse 3 (:)-
I don’t wanna stay awake, but I have work to do
I am a man of my mind who can see the truth
Cause When I talk I can hide all the pain from you
And When I don’t I can find all the lies you threw
Staying focused, taking view of the things around me
staying all closed in but I keep my mind open
I don’t burn, I am ashes of the life
that was trying to get to the world from being a no one
I am trying to figure out my motive
Taking on like I am driving rolls Royce
I am unique can’t be replaced, hidden without a trace and it’s still so quiet
Leave me to my own aid, I am unsaid
Spend my whole life afraid of the things that feel dead
Going on it with fun like it was never to be meant
How it feels But in reality, it seems like it’d never end
You can’t handle me when calm so how do you plan to control me
When all of my life falls apart and when all the pain gets me angry
I can see the truth and I can see the lies, I can see all the things left empty
But I don’t speak about it cause it will cause a riot but I know what it all always has been
Pre-hook –
It was not me who caused it, it was your actions that made me
or maybe it was my intention that wanted, to stay away from feels
Calm and controlled sounds easy when you know it
But I can’t be when it’s hard for me cause All I know is–
Hook-
Life is hard!
Fall apart!
No new start!
No regard!
broken shard
From the start!
Life is hard!
I am scared!
on my heart!
On the guard!
Avant-grande!
Gone too far!
Higher life 