My Demons (Loneliness)

Welcome back to another chapter of the book of the demons that haunt me and might also haunt you. Loneliness is like a typical disease that causes self-hate. we all feel lonely at some point of our life but learn to handle it as time passes. We feel very certain things when we feel lonely like- self hate,disappointment and mostly we get lost in complications. We feel this weight on our chest that makes us feel like we can’t breathe. We struggle to find balance in everything around us and we lose ourselves. Loneliness makes the best of us feel useless. the best way for us to tackle it is to listen to some songs that make us feel relatable to others because that way we don’t feel lonely….. we feel heard or we feel listened. so to tackle loneliness! I am going to post songs for the rest of the week to support people suffering from loneliness!!!!!! See you soon and here the first song-

Nightmare

–NEFFEX

Every day that I wake up
I wake up in a nightmare
Every day that I wake up
I can never see quite clear
When I look at my surroundings
And everybody still doubts me
I wanna live to hear a crowd sing
All my lyrics so loudly

I miss a time when we would all get together
I guess it’s fine but I really wish that we were better
Real talk, sipping drinks without all the pressure
Now everybody needs to think about posting, whatever
When people ask how I’m doing, I’ve never been better
That’s really not a conversation I’m willing to enter
How come we all continue forcing out all of this pressure
I’m just sick of these opinions and all of these lectures

I need my space now so I can feel nothing
I live this nightmare so I can be something (yeah)
I do what I love and hope you will love me (yeah)
I face this nightmare, no, I am not running (let’s go)

And I’m scared of being rich
But I’m scared of being poor
I’m scared of being lonely
But I’m scared of being bored
Sometimes I get really angry
And I don’t know why
Sometimes I really do hate me
Can’t even pick my own side

What is even going on?
Why the hell do I even write songs?
What the hell am I doing here man?
I guess don’t understand a thing, damn
But maybe ignorance is bliss
I’d rather lay in the abyss
Then be aware of what I missed
Especially if I quit
They say that hell is your last day
When you see what you could’ve became
That day would drive me insane
So I intend on staying my lane
I picked a path and I picked the pain
I want it bad, that won’t ever change
Sometimes I’m mad sometimes I’m ok
I know I’ll have what I want someday

I need my space now so I can feel nothing
I live this nightmare so I can be something (yeah)
I do what I love and hope you will love me (yeah)
I face this nightmare, no, I am not running (let’s go)

And it’s hard to be ok
When everything has changed
Yeah, it’s hard to be ok
When I can see everything
The best part of everyone’s day
Is on my iPhone on display
No matter what I do can’t get away
This isn’t healthy, I don’t feel the sameYo, and destiny is a weird thing
‘Cause it’s easier to believe
That everything is out of your hands
It’s part of a plan so there ain’t no need to worry
Don’t let your vision be blurry
Lock in to your journey
And you can start real early
You can be 13 or you could be 30
But it’s your life to live
So what you got to give
You better get after it, don’t you dare quit
Don’t you dare kid, you got dreams?
Then you’re like me
So try like me, so fight like me
Take a hold of your life and thrive like me
So you can put the nightmares to sleep like me