Verse 1-
Undesired ain’t it.
When you try to change your life but it won’t fit
To all the ways that you saw your wit
And now you’re left with something so unlit
Need a permit
To have a calm time and a place to sit
And expect life to go good without my transmit
Can’t get it
Hook-
I hide
Don’t need you to stay by my side
stay Away and I’ll be just fine
But It’s all just in my mind
I hide
Got to survive through this december
I can’t remember………
Me
Verse 2-
It feels so unreal to me. Don’t you feel it too
At first I was surprised by this and now I can’t get it through
I stayed by when no one wanted to be near you
And now that everyone is here.. let’s act like we are new
To each other.. I’ve lost my brother,
In hopes that we’d never give up on one and other
You left me in the cold and you are gone to further
The more I try to catch up the more my heart needs a burner
I know I made some mistakes myself
I know I should’ve been there instead of waiting for you to ask for help
But whenever I tried to get you through tough times
You’d just blame me and leave me instead
And now It’s all in my head
Those memories that I am stuck with and won’t make new again
I guess I’ll carry on in this path until I finally get to meet you again
I’ll carry on with the blame
Hook-
I hide
Don’t need you to stay by my side
stay Away and I’ll be just fine
But It’s all just in my mind
I hide
Got to survive through this december
I can’t remember………
Me
Verse 3-
I don’t know what to do. Where to go
Got a beautiful path that wants me to let you go
Could leave this life full of dark if I just try to follow
But I can’t… cause my heart says “no”
Have my mental issues and my breakdowns
But this whole feeling thing has got me to break now
Lost half of me and now the other half is all I have left
So I’ll choose my life dark and leave the beautiful road for some other day instead
Somewhere the heart itself is filled with gaps
and those stay there and make marks that are permanent
I’ve got mine with a huge dent
And It’s won’t leave me until I gain you again!
Hope you know that I am not happy with these consequences
If you would’ve cared then I would’ve been more generous
But in the end, this is all that I can give to you
If my choices could make a change then I would always choose you!
Hook-
I hide
Don’t need you to stay by my side
stay Away and I’ll be just fine
But It’s all just in my mind
I hide
Got to survive through this december
I can’t remember………
Me
Higher life 